well there was one time when i was really depressed and suicidal i abused myself, i hated everything including family,people who think of me, i was really sensative what people said to me like devil whorshiper,fag,and loser......it affected my family alot they were not talking to me at all and my friends did not talk to me either but my other 3 friends wolf,scott,victor help me out threw this piece of s**t but later on i got happy cause they encourged me to be happy that made cheer up a little bit,im thankful that i have friends encourged to be happy at least a little but later on i told my friends and family i'm sorry what i did so that what i did so thank you,i'm still suicidal and sad at times but i'm happy at least i have a girlfriend that makes me happy everyday...........